There is a question I ask myself a thousand times
why I stayed in Rome?
or made in a different way,
Why not returned to Santa Fe?
answers is not here, is probably at the bottom do not want to find.
I think the reasons should be very important for me to choose a life which, though satisfactory, always lacking something. It should be a great inner strength that makes you choose to live away from my roots, my parents, my sister, my friends, my aunts, my cousins, my coast, my river, my big sky blue.
A life Senada for reunions and farewells ... goodbyes are terrible for me. Thinking about parting dims the joy of reunion ... obviously try not to think about them, but they do not think are there waiting ... and though my mind oppresses my heart knows who they are.
the other day talking to my aunt about how to for lunch on Sunday I said .. "today I'm staying at my house because I have wanted" because otherwise I invite your mother, or Celes or I Adriana Laura or what, or Vero etc etc ... and I told him how nice know they are there and if you want in minutes you can see them! that I need ...
Yes, being an immigrant in distant lands so there are times it hurts a lot ... Talking about it with a friend asked how he lived and she told me "like all good .. sometimes .. sometimes evil "
I chose a life that will always be lacking something ... is it that the term to which I respond?
inherited the "gene" of the immigrant ... of being, which is the solution to diverse situations ... I got away doubly father and mother, a story repeated over multiple generations, I wonder if cease ...
meantime I'm here, adjusting to a different culture ... coming and going, with the soul in two physically distant worlds, longing for times and wishing that the chain not continue, I do not want the same for my offspring ...
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