happen to me recently when I want to express something that is happening to me I do not know which blog to put it because, in general, of what I speak, has to do with me but also being a mom. Nicole's blog as a place I thought particular to convey my experiences of being a mom but especially for my family and friends in Argentina could follow up to my sweetie. It is clear that at the time that I created did not know it meant to be mother as "my life" identifacar went live with the fact the mother be . It is clear that my initial intention was to divide my experiences, first they have to do with my sensitivity and on the other having to do with motherhood. That deluded! bound would not know how ... so, when I try to dump my thoughts are with the dilemma of "blog in which I put it? Surely this question reflects some of my uncertainty in the mind ... The "fields" are a bit mixed. On the other hand I learned that things are not black or white, there are millions of shades in between, the important thing for me is to recognize ...
Therefore, my reflections of life born to my mother the experience of being located here on the blog in which bare my soul (not always easy) and I show the daily experiences that I born transmitted, where I share feelings, emotions of my soul, those that define unique and unrepeatable Maria Claudia .. and yet so part of mankind, so that one wants to know me, and perhaps also some things I write do echo in their souls and as happens to me sometimes when I read other souls ... There is a saying that "many bad consolation of fools," I do not know if I'm stupid, but when someone presents something that looks like what I I'm going "along", "falling", I feel that what I get out of the world is not because others also happens ... so ...
All this introduction to tell you the other day I thought the emotion with which I am connecting lately is fear.
I always set aside the feeling of fear, just ignore it, not being aware the fact of feeling. As the super María Claudia was going to be afraid! I, "strong" I could not afford. At the end I think I got used both to ignore that we hardly recognize it ... but thanks to my little girl I'm rediscovering with this emotion.
One of the expressions that moves me most (besides Nicole broad smile) is what draws the fear in his face when something scary, usually a noise or a nightmare or the mother who raised voices (mea culpa) ... His eyes, his mouth modified by fear goes through my soul and echo in my horror deep fear. Looking at his expression so genuinely thought that in general it is difficult to manifest in adults, searching my memory are images that look only for children or animals ... is it that adults have learned to suppress or not to show it except in really extreme situations? Is it that the world is so afraid of fear that asks us to suppress it? I do not know, the important thing for me is to re-learn to recognize the emotion so helpful ... and it is these experiences that stir the mind for situations that represent it because I recently had a dream about a real event that I experienced when I was young when I had a lot of fear and by which I understood (now) that to reach do such a thing of fear and insecurity were installed on my hard ... (the fact I'd rather not tell ....)
I welcome fear
thanks for show me your face
know you're there to help,
why I recognize you always ...
which is hard to make me feel,
understand you want to avoid you,
but not worth ignore
also because you're there,
ignore you or not,
want to know why
to know ...
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